“I believed womanhood was unsafe before ever experiencing it,” Prisha Mosley told The Post. “I used to be afraid of a life I hadn’t tasted yet. Now I don’t get to be a girl, fully, and I won’t ever know what it’s like.”
The 25-year-old is transitioning back to being a girl after, she said, she was failed by medical professionals who led her down the trail to testosterone injections and a double mastectomy by age 18.
Prisha said she was rushed through gender transition after being convinced — by activists and therapists — that being born within the fallacious body was at the basis of all her problems.
“I don’t think people needs to be allowed to take this experimental medicine and do these experimental surgeries until they’re 25, when the brain is fully developed,” Prisha said
Her upbringing, in Maryland and North Carolina, was a difficult one.
So Prisha turned to the web for solace, and located a transgender activist community online.
“I used to be coping with very, very adult things … and due to this fact I wasn’t capable of make any friends my age,” Prisha, who now lives in Michigan, told The Post. “So I began being online lots and talking to adults online. I got preyed upon.”
On the onset of puberty, at age 12, Prisha said she experienced Rapid Onset Gender Dysphoria — a controversial term used to explain a sudden and urgent feeling of being the fallacious gender.
“I literally hated every aspect of who I used to be and what I used to be and what I looked like,” Prisha said. “I spent a while being a girly girl and being a tomboy and being a sensible girl and being this [other] girl, but none of those different hats fit me. And so I used to be like, I suppose I’m just not a lady.”
That sense became overwhelming at age 14, when, Prisha said, she was sexually assaulted by a 20-year-old friend of a friend.
Being violated made her further reject her womanhood.
“I believed that that only happened to women,” she said. “And I believed that that was only the start.”
At 15, she socially transitioned, presenting as male, and got here out to her parents, who tried to support her.
At first, the experience was hugely affirming, especially together with her online friends cheering her on.
“I used to be getting tons of attention,” she recalled. “And that felt wonderful … which is why it was so addicting. I used to be being love-bombed.”
The web activists helped connect Prisha to a transgender specialist. She brought her parents to the appointment, which lasted lower than an hour.
For Prisha, meeting with the specialist was affirming: “She looked me in my eyes and she or he said, ‘You’re a boy.’”
For her parents, she added, the experience was terrifying.
“My parents were bullied. [The specialist] said, ‘Do you would like a dead daughter or a living son? Do you would like to pick up your daughter’s hormones or her body from the morgue?’” Prisha recalled. “They were manipulated.”
She left the appointment with a referral for hormone substitute therapy that she delivered to a hospital — an establishment that, she now says, must have pumped the brakes given her medical history.
On top of combating depression and anxiety, Prisha had suicidal ideation and self-harmed throughout her teen years; she’d even had wounds of her own creation stitched up at the exact same hospital.
She was also being treated by a nutritionist there for severe anorexia. On top of all of that, she had been diagnosed with borderline personality disorder.
“I used to be an impressionable, documented mentally unwell child,” Prisha told The Post.
Nonetheless, she claimed, doctors began administering testosterone treatment when she was only 15.
Right after her 18th birthday, Prisha had a double mastectomy to masculinize her chest.
“I used to be under the impression that I used to be a boy — that I used to be born within the fallacious body — and this medicine and surgery is what I needed and never being aligned is why I used to be suicidal,” she recalled.
After her surgery, Prisha said, she was lured to Florida to live with a gaggle of individuals she online who told her she was unsafe living together with her conservative, Chrisian family.
“When trans adults told me that there was gonna be a trans genocide in a couple of years and that conservatives desired to kill us,” she explained. “I couldn’t distinguish reality from fiction.”
Prisha lived together with her online friends for 3 years, until having a positive experience while in therapy for her other mental health issues.
“I felt an amazing amount of relief — and realized the transition didn’t help the underlying issues,” she said. “I used to be like, ‘Oh my God, I could have gotten this sense and stopped being suicidal without mutilating my body.’”
That’s when she stopped taking her hormones.
“The most important feeling was probably shame,” Prisha recalled. “I used to be really realizing that I had made such a fuss over having found what was going to cure me … after which been fallacious in regards to the cure.”
She moved to Michigan to start out a latest life, however the scars of her transition still haunt her.
Prisha suffers vocal cord pain and severe vaginal atrophy from the testosterone treatment. She also, she said, lost a part of her nipples after they were grafted back on during her mastectomy. Due to her mastectomy she’s going to never find a way to breastfeed, and Prisha doesn’t even know whether she continues to be fertile.
But she is in a completely satisfied relationship now and talking to her family. Prisha also enrolled in Ferris State University to change into a therapist and help other people who find themselves struggling.
“I even have an enormous deal of empathy for trans people or trans identifying people,” she said.
